Today I am participating in Five Minute Friday, where a group of writers get together and free write about a one-word prompt for 5 minutes. Today's word is "stuff."
As the year is drawing to a close, I have lots of stuff on my mind.
This has been a year of change. We moved again. Moving is hard. You’d think it would get easier the more you do it, but it really doesn’t.
Each time we move, we have to find new doctors, hair stylists, dentists, etc. We also have to find new friends.
I make new friends every place we go and usually keep a few good ones after we leave. Some stay close, and some drift away. I know God has a purpose for each of them.
This move has been hard. Each time I think I have a new friendship figured out; it seems to not go the way I planned. I can sense the Lord leading me to look to Him for comfort, reassurance, and all the things we often look to people for. I am trying.
Other stuff on my mind is what do I do at this point in my life? I am speaking career-wise. I think I always want that solid confirmation, or somehow, I have gotten to the point where I need the solid confirmation. I have taken lots of chances, and seem to keep circling the same mountain, but with not the amount of success I would like.
Maybe that’s the point. My success doesn’t look like everyone else’s success, and if I had the same amount of perceived success as others (in the world’s eyes), how would we all fit?
I am a mom. I love being a mom. I love taking care of my family, and household. How to be content with just that? The mere fact that I am sitting here typing out these words suggests that I should lend myself to writing in some way. But then I feel the guilt about giving attention to this, so there’s always this tug-of-war between being a good mom, writer, minister, etc.
Each time we move, we have to find new doctors, hair stylists, dentists, etc. We also have to find new friends.
I make new friends every place we go and usually keep a few good ones after we leave. Some stay close, and some drift away. I know God has a purpose for each of them.
This move has been hard. Each time I think I have a new friendship figured out; it seems to not go the way I planned. I can sense the Lord leading me to look to Him for comfort, reassurance, and all the things we often look to people for. I am trying.
Other stuff on my mind is what do I do at this point in my life? I am speaking career-wise. I think I always want that solid confirmation, or somehow, I have gotten to the point where I need the solid confirmation. I have taken lots of chances, and seem to keep circling the same mountain, but with not the amount of success I would like.
Maybe that’s the point. My success doesn’t look like everyone else’s success, and if I had the same amount of perceived success as others (in the world’s eyes), how would we all fit?
I am a mom. I love being a mom. I love taking care of my family, and household. How to be content with just that? The mere fact that I am sitting here typing out these words suggests that I should lend myself to writing in some way. But then I feel the guilt about giving attention to this, so there’s always this tug-of-war between being a good mom, writer, minister, etc.
So, this is the stuff going on in my thoughts today. As we wrap up 2024, I pray to feel more settled in my own skin. I want lasting friendships, God-ordained relationships, and to love and nurture my family, and anything else He leads me to do with as much intensified zeal as I can muster. Even if I just need to rest for a bit. Let me rest in resting, Lord.
What stuff is on your mind?
My prayer today is that we continue to grow in grace and in the knowledge of Him, King Jesus. Please guide us, Lord. Thank you for the Holy Spirit who lives in all who believe.
Beth
My prayer today is that we continue to grow in grace and in the knowledge of Him, King Jesus. Please guide us, Lord. Thank you for the Holy Spirit who lives in all who believe.
Beth
There is so much in your post that I can relate to.
ReplyDeleteLoved "My success doesn’t look like everyone else’s success, and if I had the same amount of perceived success as others (in the world’s eyes), how would we all fit?"
Thank you for stopping by. We just keep moving forward and following Him, right?
DeleteWe've lived here now seventeen years
ReplyDeleteand the red soil holds our blood
and sweat, and yes our fallen tears
from days when they came like a flood,
but I learn a funny thing
every day, a mystery.
that passing time in truth won't bring
a bland familiarity.
The land grows more inscrutable,
and in fun it hides its face,
to give joy that's immutable,
a kind of dancing dusty grace
that behind this desert's veil
is a grand unending tale.
I love this! "The land...gives joy that's immutable." I looked at the word immutable. That is lovely.
Deleteis the photo where you have moved to? It looks beautiful, and very quiet.
ReplyDeleteHi Dawn! I believe this is in England, but not where we have moved to. It is so beautiful and peaceful looking!
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